It's 1AM and I'm sitting here eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Oh my gosh, it's been so long since I've eaten one, I had forgotten how yummy they really are!! For the last couple of days, I've kind of been on an eating binge - eating everything in sight. Normally, I have just one day a month like that - the day before I start my period. To be honest, for a fat girl, I eat surprisingly little food.
That seems to be my biggest problem in losing weight. That, and the fact that when I do actually get around to feeding myself, it's always the wrong stuff. I'm pretty sure that my body is in starvation mode 90% of the time. (holding on to every calorie like a drowning man clutching a life preserver) The ONLY time that I have ever lost any significant amount of weight was during my last two pregnancies (when I had gestational diabetes) and right after I had my stroke. (when I was diagnosed with type II diabetes) During those times, I forced myself to eat 6 small, healthy meals a day. It was the biggest pain in the ass to have to think about food all the time - I hated it. They say that it only takes 30 days to develop a new habit. That's crap. I made myself eat that way for months at a time, and it NEVER became habit or second nature to me.
It would be nice if I had time to plan out my trips to the grocery store, or if I had the money to keep my kitchen stocked with healthy food all the time, or if I was disciplined enough to think about nothing but taking care of myself, But my life just isn't that way. I don't live in a perfect world - not even close.
I have managed to make walking 2-4 miles a day part of my regular routine, but that's only because getting out of the house with the dogs has become my daily mental health break. If I didn't do it, I'd completely lose my marbles.
Sheesh, you would think that a nice PBJ would put me in a cheerier mood? Good thing I didn't decide to eat one of my Daddy Mac PBJ sandwiches, somebody could end up hurt. Do you all know what a Daddy Mac PBJ is? It goes like this:
My kids love it. But you should never give it to a child under the age of 9, because their mouths are not big enough and it won't fit. Or you know what else my kids like? They like it when I make a big fat PB&J then, I grill it. The peanut butter gets all warm and gooey and the Jelly gets all sticky and sweet. Personally, I prefer the standard, tried and true PB&J, straight up.
Every once in a while, some kid shows up at my house whose mother left them home alone without teaching them how to cook, and they start getting creative with peanut butter and Jelly because, they aren't allowed to used the stove. Poor kids, the only thing they know how to make is PB&Js; before long, they start cramming weird stuff inside their sandwiches. I've had kids at my house who put apples, bananas, honey comb cereal, pickles, Miracle Whip, or potato chips in their PBJ sandwich, and they think it's good !
MOMS - If your kid isn't old enough to operate the stove, don't leave them home alone!!! They will either starve, or they will become some kind of weird, hillbilly, redneck, geek who eats disgusting crap. That's just wrong, it's not responsible parenting. In fact, I think it's borderline abuse. How is anyone who eats that kind of crap going to grow up to become a normal, healthy, well adjusted human being?
If you go on a first date with someone who orders some kind of weird, disgusting food combination, would you go out with them a second time? I'm not talking about "kind of weird", like people who dip their pizza in ranch dressing, or dunking a McDonald's french fry in their vanilla shake. I'm talking about, if someone orders a bowl of Macaroni and Cheese, and they ask you to pass the ketchup, you need to get up and leave, because things are only going to get weirder . Who wants to be in a relationship like that? Things like that are some kind of glitch in their genetics, because they always have children just like them. People like that should not reproduce.
Okay, enough ranting, my sugar high is wearing off and I'm feeling sleepy. I need to get myself to bed.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Posted by Auburn~haired~artist at Wednesday, August 27, 2008