Saturday, January 2, 2010


Well, Somehow, we all managed to survive 2009. Although, I have to admit, there were more than a few days when I had my doubts. I suspect that for a LOT of people, 2009 will be remembered as a tough year. I can't say I'm sorry to see it go.

It's funny, but for me, New Year's always feels like the complete opposite of Christmas. Christmas always seems like the culmination of all the stress from the PAST twelve months; while New Year's is more about the newness and hope of the COMING twelve months. In my mind, the future is always better than the past. The past is unchangeable reality - the future is filled with hope and possibilities. That's why I don't make New Year's resolutions. Standing on the brink of a new begining, I don't want to think about the past and what I would have done differently. The past is gone, it can't be changed. The future is full of fresh possibilities that have yet to unfold. I don't want to walk into a new year holding on to all the regrets and fears of the past year.

So far, it's been a pretty good year. I started the day spending time with my mom, and two of my brothers and their families. My oldest brother has kids about the same age as Nick and Jenn. This year, my mom's house was filled with three little people all under two years old - her great grand children. Of course, I've been a Nana for 16 years now. I suppose that should make me feel old, but it's hard to feel old when you're in the midst of new life just beginning. My oldest child and her clan didn't make it to my mom's this year, but I got to spend some time with her yesterday.
Also, my younger brother and his wife were trapped in St. Louis by the snow, but they were in town for Thanksgiving, so I can't complain about that either.

When we got our crew home, my husband and I were able to spend some time together - alone. That's kind of a new thing. Seems like for the past week, my husband has developed a renewed interest in spending time with me - that's nice. Maybe my husband is moving out of his "zombie" phase? Since it's a new year, I feel hopeful anyway.

Well, I've spent far too much time puttering around the house and playing on the computer, so It's time I got myself off to bed, to dreamland.

Hoping 2010 brings lots of new and happy possibilities for everyone,

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