Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Time for Change

I am bored. It's been rainy and dreary all day long.

I knocked out my housework this morning, then spent the rest of the afternoon in the garage working on Elizabeth. (my new Halloween prop) I am really pleased with how she is coming along. I really only have a few details left to finish her off. She has a very Tim Burton-esque look to her. I wish I could put her out when she is done, but I don't think she'll tolerate the wet weather well. Also, I plan on putting her on the front porch and there isn't room for her, if we plan on using the door. So I have to be patient and wait for Halloween night.

I am finding that I'm really enjoying all this creativity. It's been so long since I've taken the time to do things that I enjoy. I have this whole area down stairs, set aside for being creative, but I rarely use it. (except for special projects) Normally, I get so busy with day to day life, that I just don't have time. I need to make time for things that make me happy. I think that's probably the reason that I want to go back to school - so I will have a reason to be creative. I shouldn't have to invent excuses to do something that I love, something that makes me happy. If I don't set my own priorities, somebody else, or everyone else, will do it for me.

My kids are old enough that they don't need me 24/7 anymore. I think I need to get over thinking that I should come last. It's just so hard to change old habits, but I think it's time.

Well, I need to get some sleep, my eyes are feeling heavy.

Good night.
Love,
Susan

5 howled back:

sparsely kate said...

Well, just from an observation...since you've started this project your posts have been just so much happier. I think it's given you a sense of purpose and enjoyment..and it's got nothing to do with anything but fun and creativity. Wouldn't that be cool if every day all we had to do was come up with something FUN and use our hands and imagination to make it happen? I hope you enrol in that art class for the next semester, OK? :)

sparsely kate said...

p.s I've sent you a gmail thingie!!!

jasminharrington said...

GOD! I have turned into my mother! LOL Unfortunately, my children still need me 24/7!!!

Cat said...

I find it freeing that my children are pulling away a bit giving me space to discover myself and what I like and don't like - its kinda like getting to know myself again!

Auburn haired artist said...

Kate: Not only do I feel happier, but my husband is suddenly wanting to spend time with me. Like he's suddenly aware that I am a person, not just the hired help.

Jas: I know, it's hard. The time and effort that you are putting into those kids is SO important. But the good news is, they do grow up !

Cat: So true. It's funny how it all seems so scary at first.