This has been one hell of a year. To be quite honest, I'm glad that it's finally over. It didn't start out well. This time last year, I felt like my life was falling apart. We were unsure about our living situation, and considering a move. After looking into several options, we finally decided to stay put. My husband had a change (for the better) in employment.
Otherwise, the greatest source of our ups and downs, once again, has been my oldest son. He had, on New Year's eve, given up on his sobriety and walked away from a rehab program and moved back home. Over the course of the past year, He moved into an apartment with a room mate, his drug and alcohol issues have resulted in; a fall from a second story balcony, a broken jaw, another move back home, a third DUI, which he has yet to deal with, jail time, a second attempt at rehab, which he also bailed out of, and moving in and out of our home three times, along with his new girlfriend, to who he is currently engaged. In spite of all the changes, he still hasn't dealt with his addiction issues, so we had to ask them to leave.
I think for 2009, my goal will be to focus more on my own life and family at home, and not allow the insanity of my son's addiction to turn things upside down and control our world. I feel like I have allowed the addictions of others to rule my life for too many years. While Nick is my son and I love him dearly, he's 23 years old, and I still have two more children that need my focus, a marriage that has virtually gone into hibernation as a result of all the stress and chaos, and most of all, I have my own spirit that has been negleted for far too long. I want to start moving forward, instead of just treading water in the purgatory of addiction. I'm still working on putting together some plans that might help to jump start the situation. Although I don't feel like I have every thing all mapped out, I have a good idea what direction I want to go, and I want to leave room for God and intuition to guide me. Also, I'm open to suggestions.
Well, it's just struck midnight and it's officially 2009 - wish me luck !!!
Happy new year everyone !!!!!